21-Feb-08 Wonderful 元宵节

 

Took a nap & woke up at 2 to continue working. Sometimes I realise my job is to wait for ppl… Very tiring cos I don’t know when will I get my things… Hahaha… Well, I can only chase everyone under their pants/skirts… Sounds weird… :p Got really tired & shoulder pain then realise it’s rather late & dinner gonna start soon…

Went to entertain 2 babies as they are very excited when comes to food… Surprise me that dear got home earlier then expected. Have to wait for zaidy before we can start dinner so we slack at room watching tv & surfing net… Then we realised it’s 元宵节 today… No wonder whole family wanna have dinner together… Sweet hor… Invited me also… Doubly sweet…

It’s a wonderful dinner with steamboat, lucky that i can eat seafood… Got to drink ’92 &’96 red wine as well, abit weird to have that together but who cares? Hehehe… I surrender early as I just want to fill up my stomach… Have my 2nd round cos everyone surrender too… Hahaha…

Have long chatting + drinking session that slowly makes me laugh… Activities that can pull me out of my doubts… Was daydreaming at first but I’m fine after that… Have another surprise that ah boy suddenly hit my backside, yes my ass lah… (Reminds me of the last time) Naturally I will take it as a joke & tell everyone on the table… poor ah boy kenna scolding by his papa & he has to say sorry while crying… So poor thing… But he has been very naughty ever since I met him, still dare to hit me… I don’t know what is he thinking but he’s getting more violent then before… That’s kid’s world, isn’t it? :p

Gets to watch Bleach p161 but I’m totally lost, all new characters… Don’t know who is who. Names getting more chim & I can’t memorize any of them. My love gets hungry easily, seemed like I got to keep lots of yummy food in the fridge for his easy access in future… Till I got enough $, can’t even survive much now… @_@

Got to top up my ezlink card soon… Left 10 to top up liao… Kns… No luck in toto… Hahaha…. Saving everything to the brim… I’m glad that I can sell off my phone to as high as 240… (Thanks dear for the help) Once I sell I will have enough for 2 months worth of phone bills… Still xiong but at least tahan for 2 months for now… *Stressed to the max*

21-Feb-08 Just want to relax

My cuppu & his coffee

Our breakfast

Dear’s pepper war with his big breakfast

Don’t really see any diff but he added chilli.. :p

Woke up early but just feeling so shag out that I just don’t want to go to work… Ika!! Anggie!!! Shhh… Hehehehe… So I decide to work from home… Starts chatting with my dear in a loving way & time seemed to pass very fast… I thot I should rest more but drag him together to chat… Kekeke…

Dear brought me for mcdonalds breakfast… Still my bagel burger is no longer there… So I have to settle with my egg muffin again… Awww….. Brought my lappy along to work but just can’t seemed to hook up to company network so I go excuse to surf internet instead… Hehehehehe….

Been reading his bloggy & knows that he’s having great fun now without me… Finally it shows that he’s really very unhappy & bored when he’s with me… I’m really glad to his friends who accompany him all along, giving him exciting moments… I’m just a normal girl who has nothing to give him…

Now I’m at our love home waiting for my dear to return home from work… After these, I will get my ass back to work. I just have to face the month end busy-ness…

Last & not least, I have added my deary’s blog. I’m really touched that he finally took a step to write down how he feels… He change for me so much that even his friends are shocked!!!! Hehehe, can’t imagine that I keep pressing him when is he gonna marry me… So funny… I just wanna tease him….

20-Feb-08 Lost in thots

Cute care bears @ NTUC… Memories stirred…

My 1kg of natural yogurt… Very恶心… I wonder how am I gonna survive finishing it…

Had a wonderful evening with my dear. We have homely dinner but we have it late cos I’m still rushing for my work… And feeling really depress somehow… No matter what my stress will take time to go away. Not easy though.. That’s life and everyone will have their own problems. Blessed that I’m still well in some ways…

After some emotional stir, we went to NTUC for shopping.. Felt lost & even went into daze when dear trying hard to chat with me… So sorry, sweetie. I’m just take certain things too seriously… Worry too much…. Felt my smile getting lesser… Think I need some comedy to bring back my signature laughter… @_@

Happily bought my 1kg worth of yogurt, cheap cheap @ $5.50. Dear so sweet, scare I hungry in office & buy me cereal too… Still want to buy others for me… Lucky I stop him. My desk very limited space lor…

Had wonderful times and finally a chance to be intimate with him again… I’m very tired but still I get an earlier sleep with his lovely concern that puts me to sleep… Unknowingly I slept like an undisturbed baby~~~

Jim -The Thoughtful Husband…

It is important for men to remember that, as women grow older, it becomes harder for them to maintain the same quality of housekeeping as when they were younger. When you notice this, try not to yell at them.  Some are over-sensitive, and there’s nothing worse than an over-sensitive woman. My name is Jim. Let me relate how I handled the situation with my wife, Peggy. When I retired a few years ago, it became necessary for Peggy to get a full-time job along with her part-time job, both for extra income and for the health benefits that we needed.

Shortly after she started working, I noticed she was beginning to show her age. I usually get home from the golf club about the same time she gets home from work and although she knows how hungry I am, she almost always says she has to rest for half an hour or so before she starts dinner. I don’t yell at her. Instead, I tell her to take her time and just wake me when she gets dinner on the table. I generally have lunch in the Men’s Grill at the club so eating out twice is not reasonable. I’m ready for some home-cooked grub when I hit that door.

She used to do the dishes as soon as we finished eating. But now it’s not unusual for them to sit on the table for several hours after dinner. I do what I can by diplomatically reminding her several times each evening that they won’t clean themselves. I know she really appreciates this, as it does seem to motivate her to get them done before she goes to bed.

Another symptom of aging is complaining, I think. For example she will say that it is difficult for her to find time to pay the monthly bills during her lunch hour. But, boys, we take ’em for better or worse, so I just smile and offer encouragement. I tell her to stretch it out over two or even three days. That way she won’t have to rush so much. I also remind her that missing lunch completely now and then wouldn’t hurt her any (if you know what I mean). I like to think tact is one of my strong points.

When doing simple jobs, she seems to think she needs more rest periods. She had to take a break when she was only half finished mowing the lawn. I try not to make a scene. I’m a fair man. I tell her to fix herself a nice, big, cold glass of freshly squeezed lemonade and just sit for a while. And, as long as she is making one for herself, she may as well make one for me too.
I know that I probably look like a saint in the way I support Peggy. I’m not saying that showing this much consideration is easy. Many men will find it difficult. Some will even find it impossible! Nobody knows better than I do how frustrating women get as they get older.

 

However, guys, even if you just use a little more tact and less criticism of your aging wife because of this article, I will consider that writing it was well worthwhile. After all, we are put on this earth to help each other.

Signed
Jim
EDITOR’S NOTE:
Jim died suddenly on May 27 of a perforated rectum. The police report says he was found with a Calloway extra long 50-inch Big Bertha Driver II golf club jammed up his rear end, with barely 5 inches of grip showing and a sledge hammer laying nearby.  His wife Peggy was arrested and charged with murder.  The all-woman jury took only 15 minutes to find her Not Guilty, accepting her defence that Jim somehow, without looking, accidentally sat down on his golf club.    

20-Feb-08 When you can do anything for love….

My lunch with Shar. Long long time din have mee pok le…

My mo-ping face… Finally my ear is recovering & my earring finally shows up but still abit red red…

Amazing how things turn out to be. Not something I expect but at least now I see things clearly. See things that I din know in the past…

I’m really scare of going home. Thinking that whether I will die or not… It’s naturally isn’t it? I’m actually more afraid of his hurting words… When you experience those hurting words, then you will know how I feel… But I guess only I know it for now….

I’m very lucky that my dear allows me to hide at his place for the time being. He even make effort into fetching me at bus stop where he seldom do it in the past. Very sweet of him…

Was still feeling very down but when I’m being greet by the 2 rascals, everything feels so nice & my mood indeed improves alot. They have grow taller abit & talks even more now with ‘Crystal Jiejie’ keeps coming to my ears until I buay tahan also… Which make his home more noisy but when it becomes quiet, I believe I won’t get use to it also…

With a much happier mood, I slowly noticed that my dear has slim down alot le… So kelian… He’s already skinny enough le, now even more skeleton then before… Still can feel that he’s still quiet but trying to be open to me and really care for me. Without a word, he prepare bread for me knowing that I didn’t have my lunch. All these, I really appreciate cos I know he wants nothing in return. All he wants is me being happy & honest to him…

As usual, I got busy with work. Yes, after office hours…. What can I do??? I’m so depressed & stressed during office hours that I ended up on the phone since noon… So no work was done… Still there’s pending work and I’m paid to do work… So I do it after settling my bread in my stomach. Got really tired after that, means I got use my brains…

Very happy that his family still accepts me after what I have done to him… The power of love really can change alot of things. It melts everyone’s heart but will incur something opposite as well, depends on what one’s think.

Was shocked to see his blog… Indeed it did hurt me alot but who cares, right? I wonder who is the married man that I slept with & with a name called Vinz. Yes, I do know someone called Vinz. He’s my online msn friend & we never met, whether he’s married or not, I do not know. Now I know why I got a weird internet sms by a person called Vinz finally. He must have mistaken me of someone else & might have my number from him cos like I said before, only my family, Gary & Ginny got my number. Truely surprise me… When I asked Vinz through msn, asking him how come he got my mobile, he was puzzled too. Now I tell him all these, he’s doubly puzzled… His message makes me laugh: ‘long distance over the air sex?’, he really makes me laugh… And thanks Vinz for scolding me & wake me up. I get your point but I believe ppl easily… It really puzzled me out & I kept squeezing my brains out thinking who is that guy…. In my life, I only involved 2 married men… Of course, both I can’t say who to protect them from divorcing so no one know who are they & I never mention to anyone unless they want to hurt their wives. Only 1 that I slept with who treats me very well and we ended our relationship when I start relationship with Charles. From then onwards, we don’t really communicate too… We know our limits. And only my dear knows who he is. 🙂

I don’t know why he thinks that I’m with him cos of his $, maybe bcos he thinks that he has wasted all his $ on me. Still I lose more than 1k of my $ and ended up pawning my gold. Not only the GE loan that I took up recently to help. Yes, 7k of loan. I know I must be stupid, when u in love, u will do anything right? I believe eric is reading these and he should know that 3 yrs 7k loan will result in me paying $271 monthly. As I said super long ago that the money that I loaned out I have to keep in mind that I will have to repay it myself… Cos no matter what, the loan is under my name. I’m still glad that I’m able to help in some ways… That’s what I have kept to myself all these while. Don’t want others to worry about me, just want to solve it myself. At least I know I did not steal or do illegal things. I just want to repay my debts slowly for now. In another 1-2 mths time, I have to worry about car insurance, worst case scenario, I have to sell car or get ntuc monthly insurance. Sorry april & mic, I didn’t have chance to save up for your angbao cos I never thot I will go to your wedding & thanks for inviting. 🙂

For all that I have lose, I know I can earn back the $, I can pawn back my gold. I’m still contented with what I have.

Today is very sweet day where dear send me to work even though he’s tired for sleeping late. Blur me forget my lappy and sotong me gets to meet up with him one more time with another goodbye kiss… Hehehe…

Very normal day that I get to eat breakfast & lunch with Shar. No Will today cos he’s on leave… Very busy day as usual… Headache came & lucky I got kopi to suppress it for awhile. Don’t think it will last long… Just feeling tired…

Glad to off work soon & waiting to meet my love again…

Realise one thing, when nothing happens, nobody will read my bloggy… When something happens, my bloggy hits amazingly increase… @_@

Very sweet of Ika my Indonesia friend & april for the support. Never know I’m being watched by them… Haha.. But it’s ok, my blog is for public so I’m fine with it. Just feeling sweet to have them around me and providing the support. Thanks!!!

Why why why????

Why you want to destroy me???? I know I did u wrong for lying to you… I still care for you and sms u to check whether you are ok… I hate the way you say things, all these negative things. If you feel disgusting for having me by your side then don’t ever ask me to come back… I’m so disheartened & thot u just need me to be around but I’m wrong… You just not happy how I treat you badly all these while… But have you really make me feel good???

I’m so scare of your words & threatens… That’s y I stayed on… I tried so hard to accomodate u but only realise that I’m just trying to prevent u from hurting me & my family….

I can’t do anything now but to wait for the things you gonna do to me… Be it, you do it to my car, my parents, my sis or charles, you will be doing yourself really wrong… Cos you forget you still have a mother who will be heart broken when she finds out… Haiz….

I didn’t expect being with someone will cause me to be hurt by him… If I do, I won’t have started it… *Stupid me*

Sorry is no longer effective

Today Alan told me that I will have 2 choices, to follow what he says or go against him & get ready to face that my family & charles will be harm… I was shocked… Even my job will be gone… I’m sad cos I know I did wrong to him but I can only see what will happen…

19-Feb-08 When the truth is more than what it seemed

Nice view that I enjoy seeing… Windy also

Really go buy 4d as promised, I’m lucky as my bus came first cos this bus usually came very late due to low frequency. And I really walk all the way home.. Walk at least 4-5 bus stops distance. Felt giddy & tired after a while, gosh, I got so weak meh? Have to piggy back my laptop as my internet is still unstable. Stupid mio…

Reached home & realise mama cook alot… When seeing my bro came home, then i know why liao… Hahaha.. But also good, i get to eat dinner since I only eat doughnuts for lunch.

Never will I know the truth starts slapping at me… I’m really sad when I get to know alot of things only when I decide to leave… Am I so scary or is it so hard to talk to me? I really blame myself for not seeing the signs, I’m stupid leh, how to see????

Felt even sadder and cried myself to sleep cos I know I gonna lose someone important that I cannot repent for what I have done to him… I don’t wish to make him unhappy further, just want him to be happy as always. If he needs anything or help, I will do my best… But I doubt he will ever ask… Cos I know what he wants is actions that came from my heart… But I usually listen to what other wants and do it… Weird hor? I’m not good at that, i guess…

~ Please don’t wait until u lose them then you say that you love them ~

18-Feb-08 Letting go finally

I believe everyone will be wondering why why why… He has been looking for answers from me on why I left him…

When we met for the first time, I really take him as a friend. I never thot we will be together. As I used to read his blog, I know he got alot of lovers. So I take that I’m one of his lovers too. I know he’s a sweet guy who treats ppl very well. At that time, I’m still with my bf… I thot he understand that I can’t commit… But I was wrong… I left my bf cos of the way he treats me but it was only for that one incident. I don’t really mean to leave him…

Just like that he assure me of a new relationship, and I found out that he’s taking me seriously when he came back from SH. I was in the middle of decision… I was so stubborn that I decide not to forgive him cos of what he has done before & accept the new relationship…

During our relationship, everything went well. Until he finds out that I’m meeting my ex behind his back… Yes, I did but I never know he takes me as a gf. I was devastated. I felt sad but I tried working hard to gain his trust. But ever since, no matter what I do, he can’t convince what I say. Even when my phone line was down due to installation of mio, he don’t believe. I go see doctor with my mama, he don’t believe. I felt the pressure that I don’t dare to face.

Slowly his expectation increases, I have to greet every members in his family. I have to learn to say thanks when I receive something & sorry for the wrong things I done. Slowly I find that I’m not in tune with him. I can’t cope all these simple things he wanted me to do.

I know I’m a bored person as compare to other gfs he had. I tried my best to fetch him every night for dinner. Bring his family out when possible. I don’t ask for anything in return.

I never will look down on someone who is running low in $, I have that kind of experience, so I know how he felt…. So I only thot of helping him whatever I can. I maybe causing myself into deep trouble but I know I did the right thing to help him…

Finally I have to let go cause from his blog post, I finally know how he felt deeply inside his heart. He’s just fulfilling his duty as a bf. I understand that cause I have a feeling that I’m just fulfilling my duty as a gf… I really need my life back cause I know future with him is very hazy, I don’t even dare to think, especially the moment he mention the word ‘future’, I totally wake up.

I know I have let him down for so long, I just want him to get what he deserve and not stressed & bad luck being with me… I been through that I know how hard it is to be stuck…

But because of him, I realised who really love me and stand by me no matter what I do. I realise all these is a mistake. My grave mistake that I will regret for the rest of my life…

18-Feb-08 Feelings gonez?

Krispy Kreme that Jen bought for us. Me 1 box, Will 1 box. So sweet of her. Imagine she carry it all the way from manila to singapore. She’s the best~~

Felt fresh for the day but couldn’t pull myself up again. Just wanna lie on bed longer. Wanna feel the comfort that I have. Don’t need to bother any other things. Slowly feeling nothing means dangerous for me. But I will pull through. Somehow…

Jen is back today with lots of doughnuts for us. I had overdue bread for breakfast so i left it for lunch.

Get to know very alarming things… Get to know both my staffs are dating. Worst still one is supervisor. So the rest will be obvious… What’s worst? Supervisor got gf already, just that he work overseas… Sad hor…  Somehow I pity his 2 gfs and sorry for him… I been through that so can only wish the better for them…

Receive smses from an old friend of mine… I’m totally surprise cos I never release out my number except for mama, my auntie, ginny & gary. Even my siblings don’t have it. So i’m totally shocked. Dumbfound and worst still I don’t have his number to verify cos he uses internet sms. Keke… Only means that he don’t want me to contact him. Just want to thanks him for concerning. Life still need to go on.

Been very negative but must thanks POK (reminds me of mee pok) who never fails to love me regardless how I treat him… So dear to me… yet I mistreat him so much… Your efforts showed me more than what I want to know…

Don’t know to happy or unhappy cos he found a new someone in his life.. I just want him to be happy cos everyone has the rights to be happy. I have done my part to help. Just hope that everything went well at his end.

Planning to go buy 4D and toto after work. Just hope that I win something. Will buy our numbers although our relationship fails. For toto, i just count on luck. If you win, remember to thanks me cos I contribute some of it… Hahaha…

Next will be desperating my housewives~~ Hehehe… Relaxing myself is the only thing that I can do to help myself… :p